Assalamualaikum Wbt.maaf,aku tiada entri tentang Amalina. kerana bagi aku, tiada apa yang penting tentang perubahan, atau, baju apa dia pakai, atau cornflakes jenama apa dia makan, atau sabun mandian apa yang dia guna, mahupun, telefon bimbit apa yang dia beli. entri ini lain. orang tak faham, takkan faham, tapi ini luahan aku menangis, mengenang sepasang rakan. this is a tribute to a past.
sometimes life can be too unpredictable. things can be out of hand in just a matter of second.we can start planning undesirable things just in a blink of an eye. sometimes, we really don't belong to where we are standing. to much complication can be done just by forgetting for a while.
after doing all the confession we must do. i sat down and think, does this what we must do. a grown up man, respectable man. so i walk to the old man, and ask him, to meet the man on the other side. me. so slowly. that i actually feels like a moving steamroller. everything felt too heavy. and there he is, the man on the other side, smiled so flatly with this dull watery face. provided that its after Zuhur, i saw a prayer mat. those anger from early this morning, i left it outside. the husky voice that i kept hearing from early this morning is getting far away. i looked him in the eyes. the old man with the uniform is still there. accompanying me.
listen.
the words felt too spiky, that it feels like its hurting my throat for me to let it out. then i asked, my friend, what have you done. he cried lot. not answering my question, or just maybe answering my question with his own way. i felt the pain. the man on the other side, sat down. and told me everything from A to Z. my hand felt too cold. mix feelings.
this feeling of killing him, but to actually tell him, I'm with him too.
mate, i know, we never planned what happened, but what you have done, is not a simple thing. and we might not plan it, but you do. you planned it. i walk past the iron fence after looking in his eyes . walking back to the sits, and its like walking down memory lane. truely, you are both the sweetest legal "friendship" I've ever witness. and for the lady in my sweater. I'm sorry for what had happen. pray to god. The Almighty is reducing your sins. HE love you my friend.
maaflah, kau mungkin tak faham apa MOOV repekkan. abaikan ini fiksyen, atau dongeng, atau cerekarama, mahupun kisah benar, tapi ada nasihat aku nak katakan. cubalah untuk tidak lupakan Sang Pencipta. kerana sesungguhnya, bisikan syaitan itu terlalu kuat hingga kita boleh melakukan sesuatu perkara yang akan kita sesali SEUMUR HIDUP. kau dh tak boleh patah balik kalau sebesar ini salah yang kau dah buat. *shed tears*. satu aku minta pada pambaca pambaca. doakan secara random, supaya ini akan tenang. tak faham juga kan? abaikan. doakanlah kesejahteraan semua yang kalian kenali.
thats all from MY POINT OF VIEW.
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